I need some help

This may be long but I want to give some details because I am struggling insanely hard getting off 7 and I need help.
10 years ago I got off H. It sucked but it was nothing compared to coming off 7. My last dose of 7 was on July 26, 2026. I used SR twice before this last time and I only made it about a week until I went back to 7. Only good thing about those times was that I figured out how much SR I needed. So this time I pre loaded for 4 days then tapered down for 10 days. The first 3 days of only SR wasn’t great but rest of the time was fine. I actually started to feel good. I tapered all the way down to 22mg then jumped off. That day I stopped SR I felt like absolute shit and that feeling did not go away. I took off a full week of work to taper the SR, went back to work for 2 days and had to call out the rest of the week bc I physically could not do my job. I felt like I weighed 300+lbs, I have never been more depressed in my life, I could not get myself to even take a shower. After my second week of no work, I did not feel any better and on Sunday I decided to take a sub. The sub worked. So I’ve taken them the last 4 days and I feel like my normal self. I do not want to be dependent on subs and I’m waiting as long possible in between doses because I’m hoping that I’ll just start to feel even slightly better but it’s not happening. If I don’t take a sub, I am defeated. It’s been 18 days and I have almost NO relief!! What do I do??? Do I just accept the fact that I’m going to be on subs? I hear it’s insanely hard to come off of them and I do not want to deal with that. At the same time, I have a job that I cannot do if I don’t take a sub. I have a family, I have a lead role at my job. I can’t just not go to work. Has anyone else experienced this extreme level of PAWS before? Any advice on subs? And by the way I was taking 7oh for 2 years at very high amounts. The last year was anywhere between 800-1200mg per day.