I blank on who I am/can’t recall my interests

I don’t know if this is an ADHD thing (or autism masking for so long maybe??) but it my best guess! I have a problem thats hindering me socially I think- if I’m asked something about myself I just go blank! Like I can barely recall it.

I feel like before I go out/see people I have to make a list or something about my interest/hobbies or just things I like in general and recite it so I can refresh my knowledge of myself. Like homework??

I’m literally about to write stuff down in a list because it’s getting irritating. For instance, I’ll be in the car with a friend and they’ll say I can put what ever I want on aux or ask what kind of music I like and I just won’t be able to name anything?? I like a wide variety of music- rock, 80’s pop, modern pop, house etc etc but I don’t really have a niche and I never know the name of the songs I like, the bands, or even most of the words because I have a broad variety of what I like and there’s no way I can remember that. I always feel put in the spot like I’m taking a sudden pop quiz.

Even interests- for instance I can’t game because I don’t have any equipment but I watch play through of games I like- but literally as I’m typing this I can’t recall them. And even if I could recall them- when someone gets excited and wants to talk to me about them I feel like such a phony because I can’t remember some of the plot and stuff. (Just remembered one of the games: Until Dawn!)

It may also be because I mask so much due to autism that I am accustomed to hiding who I am and maybe that’s made me forget?? Idk- I really don’t know but it’s starting to worry me.

When I meet new people I have such a ‘nothing’ personality because I don’t have anything to discuss! I hate feeling like I have brain fog or blanking out my life and who I am. Please help!