Left behind when I was younger than one

The whole story is incredibly long and complicated. But ... She ran away from my father to France. When she was back six years later. She was married again and had no legal papers there. The court didn't give me to her. Because she was going to take me France again without papers. ...

I feel like I paid the due because of her and her Family's faults. I came to France at 30. Her son, cocaïne dealer, engineering student, who is treated like the head of the household, messed everything up. Now I am in France, all alone. Heart broken. I am not saying I am gonna go back and I cant do it.

I have been to their house just four times. I was an academic at eng. Lit. I know how to behave. But ... That was enough and they criticized me and m'y step mom. They said that their friends can gossip about me. M'y uncle died couple months after that. They almost didn't let me to see him What the Fuck. Just happened no idea.