I said whatever and reached out to SP

The tldr is the title. He’s already mine so why am I hovering over his contact to call him? I hit call. My heart raced. He answered (which later he said he was worried something was wrong). I explained why I had to pull away which was lack of commitment. I needed to find my center again.

During our months of no contact I worked on my self concept, expanded my network, chased new goals and had something new to bring to the table. What I didn’t do: techniques, finding a manifestation coach, making anything about my life a ritual regarding SP.

I will admit, I did check the 3D in quiet moments. Looked at socials and the whole nine.

I pushed call regardless. Why would I be scared if I already have it?

We talked on the phone for almost an hour. I was happy and fulfilled. I went about my night, and went to bed happy.

This morning I slept in a bit. I heard my phone going off earlier than it normally does. SP wanted to take me out to breakfast before work. Totally unexpected but everything I assumed was coming to fruition. I agreed and we had a great time catching up over coffee.

When I was leaving he told me to swing by his place after work for a bit. I did and it was more catching up, laughs, and everything I wanted for this particular moment. Nothing heavy or confusing either.

I’ve recently had other manifestations dropping in my lap. That inspired me to poke the bear with this particular one. I’m moving slow and cautiously to monitor my self concept, although I’d like to dive all the way in. Im also inclined to go on a date with someone entirely new this weekend, just to keep doing what I’m doing for my own self.

I’m moving very slow here just to check myself. Today just felt different though. Limited pressure, but he definitely showed me he was missing me. While I was doing a lot of inner work I missed him too.

I’m not going to call this a success story yet. I need to keep doing the work necessary to maintain this. He’s planned potential outings already, but I need to pace them out rather than diving in and losing control.

Self concept!

Read up on everything you can regarding that. Believe in the law and yourself. You’re so deserving of everything you can imagine. It’s time to embody that.