I hate living alone :(

I started living alone for the first time in April/May. I left a five year abusive relationship that I had to get out of. I’m struggling to pas the time. I was sick and I’ve been out of work since last year, I also have no real friends and struggle to make friends. No job or hobbies. I’m a 23(F) with a crippling alcohol addiction (side effect from the relationship) and my meds I take have honestly made me lose interest in everything. I literally haven’t left my house since Sunday and I’ve been in bed watching reddit videos on youtube, even some that i’ve seen before already just rewatching them. My ex boyfriend stole my cats when I moved out so I got two new kittens to keep me company, they’re quite nice but i’m struggling to keep up the energy to take care of them. I feel like if something happened to me no one would even notice. My loneliness has led me to so many bad decisions like drinking more than usual and meeting up with random guys from tinder, just so i’m not lonely. I used to just spend every night at my parents house basically since I moved here but my dad stopped letting me stay there for a while, and now I just lay in bed and scroll reddit and watch BySarby on youtube. When will it get easier?