I'll admit, idc that I need coke!

I'd honestly rather feel amazing and coked up than tired and hate myself! I love how my confidence is a thousand times better on coke, I've lost extra weight, I actually feel like getting up every day, and I don't feel like I'm worthless! I have always based my purpose on others being attracted to me, and due to two people trying to ruin how people see me, life's been hard! But joining pnp subreddits and finding like minded people actually helped me! So no, I don't care that I'm technically addicted to cocaine! I love being addicted! I am a somebody again!