Idk I just need motivation…

I’ve done my opening class… Currently 2% done my special ed mild to moderate degree program… and I’m just feeling so discouraged I had this fire when the summer started that quickly fizzled out. Now my work starts up in a few days (I’m an educator for work as well) and I’m just so discouraged. Still have 3 months left till the semester ends but I just really REALLY need some help and encouragement. I just feel like such a loser for not being further along. And then I feel even more like a loser cause I’m almost 30 and not teaching yet, my wife wants to have kids soon but wants me to finish. There’s so many things surrounding this that should motivate me but nothings doing it. Anyone else dealt with this how do you get by?