Tonight?

I'm quite confident tonight may be my last. I've no one to share this feeling with, and nowhere else to go with it. Nobody to talk to, I've tried and been downplayed and shut down, spit on and told to shut up. There's nothing left, for some reason somehow I turned out to be the POS in the family. Through the last 15 years I've been doing it all as the youngest in the family. From taking care of my dad on his death bed to paying my moms bills because she's too depressed to work. I've nothing left in me and nothing left to care about. Sent out all my money a little bit ago as one last mortgage payment, now I wait until the end of the day when I clock out. It's relaxing and peaceful knowing this is the end of it all. I wouldn't have it any other way. It's well past due. Thanks to all of you in the past who have tried giving me resources to continue on, my mind is made up and now it's just a game of hours