im actually the most useless person on this earth

i am, i really am. im the background guy in everyones life whos just there for no reason no matter who i find. everyone i prioritise doesnt give a shit about me because im always the online friend while they have irls. and i get that, people are gonna prioritize their in real life friends more but theres an extent to the point where it just hurts because ive got no friends in real life, im homeschooled and completely isolated while everyone my age is with their friends or partners having fun all of the time. i did nothing but sit on my ass and cry this summer because ive got nobody but myself. watching who i consider my bestest friend cancel our plans to game or something to go smoke weed with his friends really fucking hurt. i get online friendships are considered as less important than real friends but ive known this guy for almost 6 years, ive talked to him everyday, ive been there for him at his worst and he chooses people he met 7 months ago over the plans weve been making since the end of fucking july since he'd been busy with school and other things. this happens with everyone, even when i do make irl friends they dont stick around, they always have other people that they prefer over me or they just dont like me in general. i have no worth in life, to anybody and im unimportant to everyone i know. i dont even think i have a future other than death. all of my goals are unrealistic due to the costs of everything and the state of things, i work in fucking food service for barely 13$ an hour and i only have that job because my dad was lucky enough to be a store manager of the place i work at, I wouldnt ever get a job if it weren't for him simply because nobody in my family ever has time for me, im nearly 16 and have no progress in learning how to drive and im dumb as rocks and fail school every fucking year because i just dont have energy or motivation for anything, ive proven my own point enough that if i disappeared forever it wouldnt matter and that i really should just leave and never come back.