dream loops keep me from shifting

This is going to sounds so weird but i’ve been shifting on and off for years. Meaning I stopped trying like guided methods and putting it on a pedestal, i usually just like to set an intention or listen to subliminals and see what happens, that’s where i’ve found the most success. especially because during mediations, i get symptoms but i can’t seem to focus.

i used to be an avid lucid dreamer and would use them to shift by making a portal. It would always lead me to my dr room or a different reality that was another lucid dream, even more vivid than the last, but i knew i hadn’t fully shifted. i’d do the reality check and id have all my fingers and everything felt real, but i knew it was a dream because things were still fuzzy, like it was a film over my eyes. OR id be in a sort of void or a dream already and a portal would open by itself in front of me, showing me my dr and other realities but wont let me in. It happened today. I took a nap, while visualizing and affirming until i fell asleep. I felt symptoms and saw the little portal of my dr, but then it went away. and i had a dream loop of waking up in my own bed, like THREE TIMES.

this may seem sloppy, i hope it makes sense. but i guess my question is, has anyone experience something like this?? if so, any tips please?