Five days sober

M29

I have been sober for the past 5 days, taking buspirone, naltrexone, and bupropion, after a week of drinking nonstop. I have been trying to quit on my own, without my medication and without telling the people close to me about what I was going through.

Last Friday, I embarrassed myself at a gathering with people from work, and on Saturday I decided to dedicate myself to stopping for good.

A little while ago, I was cleaning my studio, where I used to spend most of my time drinking in secret from my family. It is still a mess, with beer cans from last week lying around because I hadn't had the courage to clean it up yet. While cleaning, I found three full cans of beer lying on the floor.

As soon as I felt that they were full, I was hit with a strong urge to put them in the fridge and drink them all at once. But I left them on the floor and walked away.

Now I have three cans of beer that I don't know the safest way to get rid of, but I am proud of myself for controlling the urge and managing to ignore them.

Sorry for my english, it's not my first language

IWNDWYT