semi regression?

i've been leaning into age-regression for about a year or so now, mostly because i noticed during high stress moments, or unmasking (likely autism, trying to get to a doc) that i was somewhat regressing for some time now. however i dont think ive really been "fully little". like an odd space between being little and my adult self. Its hard to explain, i feel little, my brain gets quiet and my speech becomes childlike and so does my thinking in a way, and i like to have comfort items like stuffies or bottle/sippycup. but i also feel like my adult self at the same time, but that im aware little?

does anyone else know what i mean or feel the same way? its confusing lol.