i cant sleep because of all the thoughts in my head so im going to vent to just let it all out...

i hate how i just cant be happy like everyone else i know. and every guy i know is so much more good looking than me and i always feel so disgusted when i look in a mirror to the point where it can ruin my whole day... i also feel like i'll just never get a girlfriend because i dont have the courage to ask anyone out and there is no chance in hell any girl would want to come up to ME and ask me out. and i wish i just had the courage to end my life but i cant which only makes it worse. i can be having an alright day and have it all ruined by remembering that im a friendless loser who cant even get a girlfriend. and dont tell me in the comments to go to therapy because i already do, and it doesnt do SHIT.

okay im done