Advice, crush on two cousins

Since I was little my girl cousins would always tease and tickle me so I guess sum manifested where I wanna fuck em, one of em a few years ago sent me a snap of her in a bikini and her top was almost see through and I could see her chocolate nipples, the other I just think is pretty hot (both are tbh tho). I’ve thought about sending an “accidental” dick pic to the first one but she sometimes is telling her mom shit that gets back to my mom but she’s been quiet about how I wanna get with one of her friends. Sometimes her friend takes her phone and texts me on there so lowkey I could slip up like that. So yeah idk, the latter cousin has a bf and she deleted some snaps I saved in chat of her with her boobs almost out so I don’t think it’s worth it. Y’all got any advice?