I think i might have Factitious disorder

It sounds bad but ya....

Definition- mental health condition where a person purposely fakes, makes up, or causes physical or mental illness in themselves or someone else.

Deception: I don't necessarily lie, I just hold information on what caused my symptoms

Presentation: online i post about my symptoms/what my symptoms could be(but i dont say what chronic illness i have nor say that only 1% or less of people with my condition are effeced by those really bad symptoms)

No external Incentive: I do this for.... i don't really know.... but mainly to feel loved and cared for since I was neglected in my childhood and only felt cared for when VERY sick/ill or hospitalized

Imposed on Self: I cause harm to myself on purpose to cause negitive symptoms to be hospitalized and in turn cared for

Other factor: I'm very fucked in the head and want to lose a leg or have it damaged to the point I need peices removed(this also goes with how I've had multiple episodes of Factitious disorder since this counts as one). I caused harm to my leg to try and become ill/disabled to get attention from my mom and friends/social media.

Previous (major/one i remember)episode: took tons of meds w alcohol to get sick and when took to the hospital in alot of pain didnt tell anyone why i was in pain and let them do tests and scans and assume whatever