What do I do?

I’m in need of help and don’t know what to do!
For context, I’ve been on this Subreddit for over 4 years and have seek help for my home situation. My family is TBM but I’ve been atheist ever since I joined this subreddit 4 years ago. And since then, it’s been a living fucking hell. My parents have control over everything that I depend on and I have escaped before to California but I was flown home because the state was going to conserve me and at the time I wanted to be home. As soon as I got back, however, it became apparent that I couldn’t live with my family anymore, despite how much I love them. Their beliefs affect me and I can’t run away again as this week I got back from another failed attempt. What can I do?!