Everything is falling apart, and yet I do nothing about it.

Feeling empty 0 energy to go to out play games to do the stuff I'm supposed to do.

Im kinda disconnected to my family I truly don't know how to talk to them I don't have anything interesting going on in life, dunno what to say or do with them.

I got access to the internet at an early age exposed to so much shit I have 0 hope for the future

I had many dreams but never took a single step to make them real.

had so many opportunities hand fed to make just to me to drop off.

Im too awkward to talk to ppl so making new friends is hard to me and I never get out of my comfort zone so making new connections is basically impossible for me. a few weeks ago I got into a fight with one of the few ppl I call my friends that ended up destroying the relationship for me over some stupid stuff.

I'm too naive so some have taken advantage on me.

no amount of coping with alcohol, playing games, or watching porn will help but its all I do.

It was all ok till yesterday when I remembered nothing really is ok, if I keep going like this I'll lose the right to live the life that I want, and yet here I am standing still screaming at the void, even tho Im the root of my biggest problems in life.