Disowning Potential

My family is, let's just say, VERY DYSFUNCTIONAL.

My shit of a little "brother" for one, is a spoiled brat and a cocky piece of shit.

He wouldn't take no for an answer.

And if he were to, let's just say, not have things his way, he would become the pettiest and the most selfish bastard I've ever seen.

He would try and constantly make the most insulting remarks just to feel a sense of victory, he would want to lose to anything believe me.

Worst of all, my 'loving parents' would say "leave him alone" and let him do whatever he wants to, even when I see this could go wrong.

And when it did go wrong, they'll blame it on me for "not supervising him".

LIKE WTF DUDE! I'm trying to be the best person in this family, yet I'm the so-called "scapegoat" that 'isn't competent' or 'irresponsible', blah-blah-blah.

*sigh*

Also the fact that he lies a lot is insane, not only that, he knows my parents have "short term memory loss" (choosing to ignore what really happened in favor for my little brother).

So when I say something that he wrongly said a while ago, he contradicts it, and MY PARENTS IMMEDIATELY BELIEVE HIM LIKE HE NEVER LIED BEFORE.

I tried to make them recall the events, but their thick ass ego won't believe an inch of my explanation, furthermore, they get angry at me for being angry at him for what he actually done wrong.

And he takes advantage of it, and when I say he takes advantage of it all of the time. I. Mean. It.

And then there are my parents.

Oh the things I want to say about their parenting-

IF IT ACTUALLY EXISTED.

Firstly, they knew I had ADHD hell they even went to psychotherapy and the therapist diagnosed me RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS EVER SINCE I WAS A CHILD. And yet they chose to be ignorant, and treat me like I had no issues.

The only time they took notice is when someone else called them out. WHY BECOME PARENTS IF YOU CAN'T BE A PROPER ONE.

WHY LET OTHERS DO YOUR JOB FOR YOU?????

WHY BECOME PARENTS IF YOU LET OTHERS PARENT ME FOR YOU???

And about their techniques.

My mom's "parenting" are another thing.

Firstly, she's so bad at accepting her fault that I, a guy who has mid-tier ADHD, is genuinely more morally competent than her!

I accept that I'm wrong from my wrong doings, hell I let people blame me to get the guilt of the accused shoulders so I feel less worried about them, but my mom believe me is so morally pathetic, that she tries to guilt trip you by making you feel bad for blaming her even if it's reasonable and there's ACTUAL PROOF.

She does like small but noticable gestures that really tips your morality scale of "Did I accuse the wrong person?" so off balance that you can't even trust your own morality anymore.

Secondly, when she gets angry at me, rather than trying to forgive my actions, because honestly it's hard to control myself, SHE SHAMES ME FOR THE ENTIRE DAY.

Not only she berates me everytime she sees me or walks by, she keeps repeating on telling my faults and honestly, HOW CAN I MOVE ON IF SHE KEEPS ON MAKING ME FEEL GUILTY FOR WHAT I DID??

SHE SAID "YOU MUST MOVE ON", YET SHE CAN'T EVEN MOVE ON A SIMPLE MISTAKE.

AND I ALREADY SAID I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I DID YET HER PETTINESS IS MORE STABLE THAN THE MODERN GLOBAL ECONOMY!

Thirdly, she gets angry real quick, I know that's understandable, but get this, SHE SAID "SHE'S THE ONLY ONE ALLOWED TO BE ANGRY"!

SHE EVEN GETS ANGRY AT ME BEING ANGRY! I WANT TO BLOW OFF SOME STEAM WOMAN YET YOU WON'T EVEN ALLOW ME TO.

Fourthly, and this is about her obvious favoritism between me and my brother.

She says I'm more easy to command to do stuff, but she loves my brother more, even if she knows he is a back-talking, shit-faced, insignificant bastard.

She says she "loves me as her son", but deep down, I know she only loves me because I'm easy to command to do stuff, not by being her son.

The only son she truly loves is my little brother, I'm just a biologically hired servant.

Lastly, she told me to choose what I really want, hoq can I do that if EVERYTHING I CHOOSE IS WHAT YOU DON'T WANT.

And do you know what's worse? When I choose an actual good choice, SHE WORDS IT LIKE MY CHOICE IS THE WORST CHOICE EVER IN HUMANKIND!

But that's not the worst part, she words it like "Your choice is right, but this bad thing will inevitably happen and you can't go back, so do you want to stick to your choice?" AND THAT PUTS ME IN A MORAL DILEMMA SO DIFFICULT, I GIVE UP CHOOSING FOR MYSELF AT ALL!

And don't get me started on my dad's "parenting".

If you thought her parenting was bad? His is non-existent.

He's constantly angry, like so angry, I just told what I feel about them and he gets offended real quick.

Other parents say "don't compare youself to others", but HOOOHOO BOY, They love to compare me to the people living in the slums.

And they would compare me over and over and over until it makes me feel defeated, which in term makes them feel victorious and they have control over me. I might be even better living in the slums if it makes me happy enough every single day.

I get the feeling that my brother's pettiness is from my Dad, which is worse because I was raised by fearing him, almost abusive drunk dad feeling but he's conscious and he knows that this is bad parenting but does it anyways to make him feel better.

So overall, Dad is a narcissistic douchebag who's temper is more flaring than his bald ass head and the only thing he does is scream at me for being "ungrateful". Mom is also a narcissistic douchebag who's manipulates me like I'm some sort of mentally-impared inbred. And my brother is a narcissistic douchebag who loves seeing me in hard times thinking my suffering is his entertainment.

I want to disown my family ONG. They better thank me that I'm still able to tolerate their actions.

I don't love them, I don't hate them either, I much rather tolerate their existence. If they continue to do this. I swear. I'll leave them immediately

I'm from Southeast Asia if you can't tell, so of course they continue to reinforce the "Bad Asian Parenting" trope.