Lesbian or bisexual??

Lesbian or bisexual??

Lesbian or bisexual??
Longer story

Hello, this is my very first post so I’m not sure how posting and tagging works yet.
I need help with my thoughts and truly to proses myself. So I’ve always thought of myself as bi but having a preference for men eve since I was 11/12. My attraction to women always felt like it should be a secret even though I have openly supportively parents. It felt like the option that I should hide. But men felt easy. It was expected and the way it “went”. But looking back at my childhood and my attractive towards the opposite gender I see it as something I avoided. I remember my strong resentment towards boys and getting married to a boy. Although these childhood games could mean nothing I’m not sure. I just remember singing “girl power” songs imagining never liking boys and being stronger. I had what I now would call a crush on my old best friend. When I was around 14 I had my first big girl crush. And she liked me back, although she just wanted “casual no strings attached” so i stepped away. The more I think about my attractive towards men the more it’s false. I think about wanting to be a mother but in the fantasy there’s no man it’s just me being a mom. Or me getting married or me growing old with a faceless character. I thought I was asexual for a long time because i couldn’t fathom being attracted to men. But u could a women. I can see how a man could be attractive but I can’t imagine being in a relationship with them. I don’t know if I find them attractive or if I want them to find me attractive. I need help and advice. Thank you if you’ve read this whole thing