Hello  
Actually a remedy for my baby, it’s an old superstitious method to get rid of evil eye 🧿. Passed from generations and most of my elders still do this.  
You hover egg 🥚 over bb then fill half glass jar then crack the egg open and let it settle. Then you look out for air bubbles and how it’s forming. I am no expert on what to look out for specifically but I just do it 😂 some light breakfast for others 

I 26 M and my current partner 23F

We introduced a beautiful little peanut bb into this world and today she is 2 months old. Officially a girl dad ❤️  
The joy the excitement the difficulties that will come I am here for it.  
But man there is just an ongoing problem between my partner and I. Our problems have been persistent for 3 years now 😭 I thought we would already grown out of them and healed and fully trust. During that time we had many occasions of brink separation and periods of actually being “separated”  
(Many will think we should’ve just cut it but man we was just silly about it)  
Now that we have a fresh newborn and my partner is battling with me with a mix of postpartum something, not to sure.  
Just makes this household very tough to keep my patience and my arm extended for her to grab for help.

I had advised to go seek possibly a postpartum that specializes in mental health. But that ends with an argument and just stating I should be the one going. No matter how patient, soft spoken, with kindness I put it. It’s a flat out no.

Don’t get me wrong I am also filled with flaws. But the real kicker points that I must point out within the recents battles.  
1, I can handle disagreements & arguing but when Partners voice becomes loud, like loud I get really annoyed. That has been constant but now with our bb girl she pays no mind of the volume of her voice when she holding the bb while doing that. It get disturbingly loud. Just couple days ago the Dr said my bb girl has late hearing/ sound response times 😔 not a full blame on her but just a thought about it

2. When I respectfully ask to have some space after a serious arguments, yes rare occasions she respects them but most of the time she wants to resolve it. But her character is just a bit controlling on how it goes about It. Then makes it just much more harder. But now that we have our bb girl, there was one occasions where I was holding my bb and she tries to man handle me to look at her while I asked her I need time while holding my bb and asked for some space which flew over her head and tried to forcefully have a conversation and grabble me where she pierced and scratched my forearm like rlly -./-! Was getting to close to aggression with my bby girl sleeping on my chest. F@cking aches my heart rethinking that.

3. Plenty more before pregnancy during pregnancy and now with our bby girl and postpartum.  
AMITA for asking for a separation? I had voiced that.  
Initially  I wasn’t going to physically force a separation but offered hey we’re not working out it’s best if we separate bc I do not want my Bby girl growing up in chaos.  
Have her take her time to fully heal herself physically from postpartum, have our bb girl be close to her mother and father for how many months, I will make sure any bills and bills from her get taken care off. Her job gives her the ability to do some work but of course I not asking her to do it. But have her get back on her feet with a support system including me bc that’s my bb’s mother, then we finally be able to co-parent. Not sure how a women’s part will fully view is but I think it may be fair with revisions of course.  
But with that conversation is a flat out no 😫 always met with how about the bb, she won’t have a stable home, promise we’ll get better, then that occasion was met with some aggression too smh

Im just sad man, we both grew up with dysfunctional household & my dream was to have a proper partner that can grow a family together. Sad for my little baby girl.  
I don’t know how much more we can take or if there’s an exit or entrance.

Thank you for the ones that read it 🙏

4 years of love, chaos, betrayal, hope, birth.