Is it just me or is everybody stupid?

Just a heads up: this is gonna sound arrogant. I’m gonna look like a know-it-all, and people are gonna hate me for it. I don’t think that people are less than me, I just think that they’re dumb.

Anyways, I’m 18, and I’ve always felt insanely lonely.

I have Autism, adhd, generalized anxiety and depression. I’m smarter than most people, and it’s written in my neurological evaluation that I’m “gifted” and have “high iq”. I’ve always felt like my mind is 3-4 years older than my body, and I have memories from when I was 2. I didn’t skip grades or get support from school, cuz they really hated me for some reason. My teachers were abusive and purposely withheld important shit from my parents. But that’s besides the point.

It makes sense that I’d feel isolated at school, because of the maturity difference and all. The weird part is that adults have always seemed stupid too. They don’t, in fact, listen to what I say.

It’s crazy because when ur a kid, adults are supposed to be these really moral, inspirational figures that have the best of intentions at all times. I’ve always known that this is bullshit, but I guess I wanted to believe it wasn’t. I wanted someone to hold on to, and I had nobody. I was alone. I am alone.

I try to make friends, I swear I do, but every time I try it’s like there’s this cloudy shine in ppls eyes that says “I’m not paying attention to you”. Then they prove I’m right. I wanna socialize and go to parties, I wanna be a normal teenager, but I just can’t.
I’m either extremely unlikable or there’s something going on with people in my neighborhood. Weed in their water pipes nd shit.

My own parents do this too. I try to talk and communicate, and all they have to say is “huh” and “wha..?” IT SUCKSSS. I just don’t feel cared for. I’ve never felt like my parents liked me as a person. I’m a concept. Im the background character in my own life, and sometimes I just let my mind drift into numbness to avoid the pain.

I don’t actually think that people are rats and I’m superior. I think I have a problem. A disease. I think too much, and I’d rather live in ignorance. I like the numbness. I like the loneliness. It feels like home, and it’s so detrimental to my mental health.

Idk what to do here guys. Help me out on how to stop feeling like I’m in a lifesim. Bye lol