I feel the need to die because I was rejected by someone.

The idea I was rejected by someone I really don't want rejecting me just gives me a hole in my heart that won't heal. I just can't take any advice about it because none of it works. It's just cut into me like a permanent scar the just won't go away. I feel like a failed person especially for this. I was rejected by her before I even discovered her. She keeps shutting me out all the time. The thoughts about this fuck with my mind and I cannot get it to go away. Now I wonder how I should just do the final solution and when to do it because this scar will never go away. What made her so special to make it a crime to be rejected by her is her brilliant anime artwork.

I also do feel impending doom with the world crumbling around me but that's going into a territory I refuse to go in and I refuse to elaborate any further. I was also heavily bullied by a website I refuse to mention.