I'm scared I won't make it past 18.

TW for mild abuse? Idk if it counts since it's just threats but whatever.

Reassurance would be greatly appreciated empty or not, I think I just need to know I'm not on my own.

Mother threatened to kill me because I was calling a friend late and got too loud (yes, that's my bad), father was more concerned about me disrespecting by arguing with the way she was speaking to me than the fact that she said she'd kill me. Not the first time, probably won't be the last. No physical abuse, but I don't want to be here when it starts.

I feel isolated because I can't do anything without their permission or supervision, they'd rather I sign emancipation papers than let me go out alone. Could chalk it up to overprotectiveness but nope, they just don't want to be seen as the ones responsible if I die, apparently.

Objectively maybe dying young is the answer, but I want to be a doctor, so I'll have to let it be.

In a few days they'll pretend I exist again or buy me something or I'll breakdown and they'll apologize and promise to be better, then it'll start again and I'll end up back here.

I'm really tired.

Sleeping on the couch tonight because after telling me she'll kill me she took my room. Very nice experience, may I learn to shut up this time.

I realize I'll probably wake up tomorrow and be fine and done with these thoughts, just need to get this out. Thank you and goodnight.