When the only dysphoria you have is blood cycle shit and it’s also sensory hell in every single aspect, so like you get the arm implant and that’s not enough to stop it so you get put on seasonique so you don’t bleed as much but now you’re “spotting” (whatever the hell that means) for at least 21 days and all the obgyn appointments are at least a month out so you want to go to the ER but it’s not enough bleeding to be considered a danger but you literally are two seconds away from ripping out the defective organ yourself with your teeth and you’re on your 5th period in 21 days or something like that idk I don’t remember when I started and it keeps going and all I want is to pretend i don’t have these stupid organs but you like, feel the blood literally coming out and a pad would be even worse but anything besides literally bleeding out is apparently considered fucking normal???? Like what’s normal about suddenly bleeding for 21 days like I feel the term “spotting” is just bullshit made up by doctors so they don’t have to deal with yucky wucky uterus blood and to shut up crying vag wielders and the medical system will just pat you on the back and say to just put up with it ig 

Literally can’t have shit in this goddamn life I guess fuck meeeeeeee

Do not rip out any organs with your teeth I am JUST conveying the desire that has come over me because wHY MEEEEE

I hate TS I hate TS I hate TS (Text and vent in post body, CW cycle shiiiit, colorful language concerning the desire for self mutilation, medical bullshit)