Recent release of the prison calls have really disturbed me.

I cant get these calls with Ryan out of my head. I shouldn't be surprised that a POS like him would reach out to someone in prison to be his wife but idk I always thought he was pretty much harmless, albeit, pathetic. It's really disturbing someone like him is able to walk around in society and work with our most vulnerable and feel comfortable enough to say the things he said on a recorded line no less. The race stuff I found really disgusting. I know that compared to all the other salacious things it can get overshadowed but I cant stop thinking about it. It was awful how he delighted in every awful racist thing she said. Im not a POC so I never really realized or thought about how there are people among us carrying these awful thoughts. It makes me so sad that POC would be exposed to hatred like his. It's like you have to lose a part of your innocence to protect yourself from people like him. Im sorry if Im rambling I just found those calls very disturbing. Ever since I heard them I have felt this dark, yucky energy.