Avoidant ex

Imma be honest it’s painful that I got slandered online and she gets to walk away and move on and make me look like the problem while I quietly sit here and take the beating without reacting and saying a word. Feels like me (the partner who cared about her and tried to work things thru calmly) lost the breakup and my ex gf (the avoidant, manipulative, narcissist) made it out unscathed. I hope karma finds her way back to her, not even to ruin her life but heal her so she stops acting like a child. The worst part is I won’t let myself hate bet because I cherish the good times but she makes it clear to the world she hates me and I’m a horrible person, just because she can’t take accountability for discarding the only partner she’s ever had who cared and wasn’t toxic but steady and ambitious.