teenage in need of advice

hello! I literally downloaded this app just to do this. Sorry if there's any misspellings, English is nos my first language.

If anyone sees this and has any advice for me great! if not I'd because I just need to get this out of my chest one way or another (but help would be appreciated).

So there's this friend of mine, I started to develop feelings for him maybe 3 months ago, and I really don't know what to do.

I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, and I hate this feeling. I hate how I need him to look at me, to think well of me. Also I know this isn't convenient for me because my mom literally hates him.

I really need to stop this feeling. So most of the time I'm wishing for him to do something (or even hurt me) so I can have a reason to walk away from him. Another option is just telling him the truth, so he can reject me and i can take distance from him.

Just so I can avoid doing this, does anyone have any advice on how to stop feeling like this without having to take distance? or u think maybe I should tell him how i feel and let it be the end of it.

Thank u for reading!