I can't help that people don't wanna hire me, or be around me, or want me around

Every job application i put in denies me, the only people I have in my life is a family that doesn't want me too come around them unless they need something from me, so how the hell am I supposed too survive when everyone and everything around me rejects me? All I hear in my mind is im not allowed too be around people or jobs because im not good enough because that's how im treated... wtf am I supposed to do, I might as well die but then that would just please everyone that ignores me