Confused and Need Guidance

Heavily, emotionally involved with someone who had past traumas of abuse. Very sweet and loving person who has quiet BPD and it never seemed like a problem.

• Talked through a ton of past abuse and trauma that she never told anyone.

• Started reading books on it and was genuinely trying to heal.

• Held her accountable on things, which she asked me to do, like meds or drinking too much

• But then 4.5 months in, she was less loving, although still kind and talked all the time.

• Went on vacation with friends and family for 10 days, came back and two days later reached out.

• Friday said she is going to be better and that she knows she hasn't been treating me right and that I'm her home, etc. Said how she's been exhausted and doesn't even have time for friends because she was super busy all last month and the start of this one. Was in a boating accident, too and had some stitches, etc.

Super great talks. Couldn't talk during the weekend.

Monday comes and she stays silent. I reached out and she didn't reply. She's stalking my socials and very much not on her own at the moment, which is odd. No blocking or anything, so that's good?

I'm fine with ghosting and her leaving. But to come back, say all this stuff and then leave. I don't get it. A woman who would get physically sick if I left her on read for too long just ups and goes.

The last day she was holding stuff in and thanked me for pressing her and asked me to do that when she goes silent. But I don't want to do that now because I'm not going to beg her to talk.

Is this normal?