Why are you awake?

Honestly, idk why I’m awake. I think I’m just realising how different adulthood feels from what the little girl in me imagined growing up would be like. Nothing is necessarily wrong, but somehow life feels so different from what I thought it would.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about starting a newsletter, maybe just as a reason to write more and get some of these thoughts out of my head. Let’s see where that goes.Anyway, why are you awake? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Post-party dopamine? Or just another episode of staring at the ceiling and questioning life at 3 a.m.? lol