Someone give me hope

I'm on my millionth anti psychotic and I'm having major side effects. I'm so tired guys. My whole life my meds either stop working or I have horrible side effects. I don't know how long I can keep this up. I've been dealing with mental health since I was 7 and now I'm 33. I know I've survived 100% of my bad days but God damn would they ever turn good? The only reason I stay is for my son. But I'm just so gd tired.