Person love sent a final voice message before blocking me and my head is completely messed up, don't know what to do

Hey guys,

It’s 3.30 AM and my mind is completely spinning. M 28 here The girl I loved for 6 years sent me a final message yesterday and blocked me everywhere.

For the last 2-3 years, things were messy. Our families didn't accept us, and her parents kept setting her up with wealthy guys for arranged marriage. Every time she spoke to someone new, we’d break up, but we always found our way back to each other

Now, her family found a Vice President/VP guy from South Mumbai, and she’s decided to go ahead with it. Before blocking me, she sent this voice note

"The thing is na, kabhi tumko dikhta hai ki Arey, yeh potential hai is bande me yahan bandi chali jayegi', toh tum mera dimaag kharab karne aa jaate ho.tumko dikh raha hai ki tumhari bandi jaane wali hai, toh tum usko aur is tarike se nhi rok sakte ho

you really told me ki genuinely koi banda jab accha aayega, toh tum mujhe jaane doge. Aur tum seriously yahi kar rahe ho. Jhooth? Arey chutiya, tereko jhooth kya, main tereko toh kuch bolu hi na! Mere life ka kuch bhi na bolu main tujhe, tu toh itna bekaar aadmi hai. Bhag saale!

Main nahi aayi thi tere life mein. Let me tell you, YOU were the one who begged me to come into your life, I did not beg you. Let me tell you, I do not want you. Abhi toh maine is baar yeh 6 mahine mein, matlab jab aap aaye the mere life mein wapas, maine aapko choose hi nahi kiya tha.

Tum zabardasti force kar rahe ho. Main jab bhi tumko nikalne ki koshish karti hoon, tum yahi tamashe karte ho. Toh mujhe darr ke tumhare saath rehna pad raha hai. I don't get it... Like main yeh kyu entertain kar rahi hoon? Maine toh abhi beech mein bhi chid-chid ho ke meri mummy ko bol diya tha. Aur meri mummy ne bola tha ki, 'Tu ne abhi yeh bande se baat band nhai ki, toh main tere papa ko bol dungi.' Aur wapas yeh main meri mummy ke paas leke gayi na. mereko sach mein ghar leke chale jayenge woh.

Toh do whatever you want. Aur mujhe haan, genuinely woh ladka accha laga hai. He is very soft-spoken, he is very considerate. Mujhe genuinely accha laga hai, he is doing very well in his life, business, everything. So yeah, I don't want you. Aur uski family ko main genuinely pasand aayi hoon, unhone biodata wagerah sab dekha hai. Aur... ho sakta hai idhar. Shaadi ho jayegi meri. Toh aapko jo karna hai kar lo. Bye.

Main aapko block kar rahi hoon. And... Aur haan, yeh attention nahi hai. Genuinely meri usse itni baat nahi ho rahi hai. Aise ek din mein kisi ko kuch pyaar nahi ho jaata. But koi-koi cheezein meri tick mark ho rahi hain ki ghar accha hai, uske ghar walon ko main pasand hoon, chota sa family hai, bahut bada family nahi hai, bahut bada dhigara nahi hai. Everyone is independent, everyone is padhe-likhe, and... Bahut accha hai woh sari cheezein. Toh meri bahut cheezein yahan match ho rahi hain jahan mujhe compromise nahi karna pad raha. Unlike ki aur rishte mein jahan mujhe city, everything, everything I had to compromise. It's not like that.

Aur main aaj bhi wahi boli ki mujhe yeh cheez nahi pasand hai. Maine aapko beech mein bhi kitni baar bolne ki koshish ki, but aapko woh ho jaata hai, 'Main baat karna band kar doon?' But you don't do that! You ALWAYS choose yourself!

Bro, yeh bhi abhi just... Tujhe main chahiye hoon, you just don't want to lose me. You don't want to keep me. Like, main... Tereko woh sabzi banani hai, khaani hai, but na tere paas vessels hain, na tere paas masale, na tere paas kuch. Bas tu ne sabzi lekar usko sadaa raha hai tu, aur woh sabzi main hoon jo sad rahi hoon. Aur tujhe tera mood bhi off ho raha hai ki tu sad kyu rahi hai. Arey toh tu bana ke kha toh le, tu rakh toh le! Tere paas fridge bhi nahi hai usko rakhne ke liye!

Aap nahi so pa rahe ho, main samajh rahi hoon. Main uske liye hi aaj subah call ki thi. Mera bhi sir usi wajah se dukh raha hai kyunki I am notthat kind of girl, Mera value main as a person waisi hoon hi nahi ki kisi ko backup rakhoon. Aur tu jaane ke liye nahi taiyaar mere life se! Bilkul bhi nahi jaane ke liye taiyaar! Ek baar ka chhod dena yaar!" Dfa ho ja na

Hearing her say that being with me felt like "rotting," that she stayed out of fear, and that she's genuinely ready to move on with this new guy completely shattered me.

I know she blocked me and explicitly asked me to leave her alone. I know I shouldn't reach out. But the guilt, the heartbreak, and the constant urge to text her from another number is eating me alive.

Anyone who reads all Thanks for reading. 🥹