I ruined my life

I will be unemployed and homeless in 6 weeks and I just ruined my life by declining a job offer that would take care of all of that because I was too scared of depressed or misaligned, idk.

I have been suffering from depression for many years, but the last three were especially bad. Long story short it caused me to skip a bunch of important things and not really set myself up for my future.

I have loving parents in my third world home country so I could always go back there I guess but I gave spent seven years working towards a specific thing and squandered it all due to depression and anxiety. I am not very much in a mood for living right now. Being an immigrant is hard enough, being clinically depressed on top of that is something else.