Crappy Mom Wanting to Stop Pumping

Am i a crappy mom if i choose to stop breastfeeding/pumping even if i technically still can?

It’s just so much on my mental health and i really need to get back on my psych meds. I’ve been dealing with PPD and PPA for 4 months and i just. Need some relief.

I feel like crap about myself all the time. I’m so depressed and anxious. But i can’t provide breastmilk on them. She’s already a combo fed baby but still.

I miss feeling okay. I miss energy drinks. I’ve gained so much weight post birth. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and i feel like crap. I just want to feel okay.