I think about ending my life almost everyday

I think about this almost everyday because I feel like I'm not good enough. I always feel alone. Feel like I'm not good enough for anyone to date. I worry no one likes the way I look or thinks I'm too boring and quiet and don't talk enough. I feel like everyone will judge me. I'm on the spectrum on got a late start in life. I feel like people will think I'm a loser and it all make me have suicidal thoughts almost everyday. I feel like no one understands me and feel alone because people don't understand. I don't know how much longer I can keep going.