Fiancée possibly gave me HIV

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Hi! I’m a 21 year-old (F) I’ve been in a relationship with a man for the past three years since I was 18 and he was 47 ( I’m now 21 and he’s 49).

I’ve been noticing symptoms the past two months such as I breaking out in hives all over my legs as well as rash all over my legs and before I met my current ex fiancé he had showed me a photo two weeks ago which was labelled “January 2023” which was a month before us meeting, in his camera roll the photo of him he had a bad rash all over his face and his neck, and to my knowledge now he had slept with an HIV positive trans woman in December of 2022 before dating me. I only know that she is positive because she had messaged him on his phone back in March when he cheated on me again and she revealed that she had HIV as well as syphilis.

While he was drunk and asleep I found out that he slept with lots of trans women and gay men unprotected he used to be an alcoholic and drug addict. He has been open with his bisexuality and after going through his phone when he woke up I decided to ask him the last time he was tested after I found out that he slept with trans women and men. He told me that he hasn’t been tested in four years and he also cheated on me in March again with the same HIV positive trans woman after he got out of jail for DV against me in march. I have been putting off getting tested for the past two months but I have been losing weight and I have felt very fatigued and I have very bad brain fog. I was just wondering if there’s a way to get over the fear.