What makes it stop?

You are the only ones who will know the gravity of what I'm about to say.

The internet has ruined my life and for a long time at that. I've thrown away so much time. Like seriously years on end of this shit. I know it's played a big role in where I'm at in life today.

I've done the addicting substances. I've been there. I'm still right now addicted to nicotine and caffeine. With these things though it's quite painful when it's crashing down. When your in the hospital for fluids because you've drank yourself to black out for 5 days straight you know the damage your doing/causing.

The internet though is so... So much different. It takes you and you don't think twice about the life you could have. I'm filled with so much rage. Where was I? was chronically online, that's where I was. I was watching Netflix. I wasn't in school, I wasn't socializing, I wasn't helping the ones around me grow or helping my self grow. I gave it all away to screens for years on end.

And I know how to fight, I know how to be better. I know it's going to be really fucking hard. I remember the last time I kicked it almost being brought to tears as I sat with my thoughts in my room, for the first time in so long was actually looking at my life.

I'm honestly just scared. With problems and addictions you have a problem and everyone agrees. Everyone knows it and it's a fact of life. You go to meetings because you want to stop drugging. You may find therapy for your problems. With the internet it's like the silent killer. It's an assassin who takes everything silently. Hardly any disturbances, no eyes batted, no questions. Your killing yourself and no one is there to stop you.

There was so much potential for me.

I want to stop. I don't know how though I will actually view this as the sick and disgusting poison that it is. It has Killed the person who I could of been. It is absolutely disgusting.