I (F48) cheated on my husband with a 27 year old after a night out and it completely changed my life

I’ve been married for 24 years. My marriage isn’t the absolute worst, but it is far from great either. We’ve had sex twice in the last two years. He has no desire whatsoever. My best friend Bre has never been married and has been encouraging me to cheat for several years now because she knows how miserable I am.

In May, we went out together, and I planned to spend the night at her place. Bre is definitely a bit more on the wild side than I am and sleeps with random men all the time. About a year ago she discovered she had a thing for younger guys and has slept with several since then. That night we were out and she ran into one of the younger guys she’s hooked up with a few times and he had a friend with him. She invited them back over to our table and we spent most of the night drinking and dancing with them. Bre was encouraging me to be flirty with the friend, telling me I should dance with him and tonight was my chance, but I kept blowing her off, though I did dance with him and flirt with him a little bit I didn’t want to take it too far

Eventually, it came time to leave, and Bre invited them back to her house. We went back and continued to drink some more and play cards. Eventually, I got pretty tired and said I was going to go take a shower. By the time I got out of the shower I could hear, and soon saw as I walked by her room, Bre and her hookup fucking on her bed. It was actually super hot seeing her just not caring at all, that the door was open and just taking it.

I stood there for a couple seconds, and watched before walking out into the living room and saw the hookups friend sitting on the couch watching tv. I sat down on the other side of the couch and we made a little bit of small talk. We joked about how Bre and her hook up were going at it. He said something along the lines of he was getting horny hearing her(Bre has always been super loud and doesn’t care who hears) and being pretty intoxicated still, reply that it was getting me pretty wet too.

He made some sort of comment about getting my panties too wet and I, without thinking about it, I told him I wasn’t wearing panties(I was in a little thigh length nightgown after my shower). I don’t really remember all the details of what happened next, but I knew eventually we were making out on the couch me on my back and he was in between my legs in a missionary position. He pulled my breast out and started to lick and suck on my nipples, and I could feel how hard he was at the same time and I completely caved. We were both completely naked shortly after and he slid inside of me with some effort(MUCH bigger than my husband). He only lasted a couple minutes before cumming on my stomach.

I went and got cleaned up in shock of what had just happened. But started to get worked up again in the bathroom as I heard Bre and her guy still going at it. When I went back out to the living room, he was sitting there naked still, and was hard again stroking himself. I couldn’t help myself and I climbed on top of them. This time he lasted much longer and I’m pretty sure Bre and I were competing for who was louder. I had multiple intense orgasms and even squirted a little bit(which I’ve never done, and honestly thought was just for show in porn).

No one knows but Bre and the two guys. And I’ve met up with my guy several times since. I feel like I am a teenager again. We’ve been having sex in the back of his truck, my car, wherever we can.

I know it’s terrible. I know I shouldn’t cheat no matter how miserable my marriage is, but I’m not sure I can stop at this point.