One of my online regrets

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My exams were over, so I was kind of bored, we all were so what our friends group (3of us) did is used Omegle and do what boys did, troll the other hostel boys and it was really a fun activity to do and It was after a healthy slur battle did I swiped and well, it was a girl, and nah we were not gonna have a slur battle with a girl so all we did was have a decent conversation with her we shared our names and whatever is going on in our life etc etc. and she was really sweet one(She called me cute too) , her voice was, and we talked for nearly 30-40 mins with her and later on one of my friend randomly swiped because he was bored.

Well, I didn't like it but what's gone is gone and we've had our Omegle fun for 20 mins more before we all settled, so did I, I went back to my room and Idk why I felt like opening it again, I thought what if I see her again?

People will say she must've already forgotten about me but I don't know I felt like doing it anyway, people say whatever.

So I just kept swiping and talking with random people but doing the swiping mostly, almost secretly wanting to meet her again, It's been an hour, well, I was losing hope and said to myself,If I don't get her in 10 swipes I'll just quit and God willing, I got her in the 2nd swipe, I really thought my luck was with that day

And to all the Ryan haters, She remembered my name

Aren't you Ryan? We met earlier?- she said

I said yeah here I am

She said I somehow felt that I was going to see you again

I was actually blushing -- I didn't know how to control that because I don't have much experience with that thing

Oh me too, certainly - I said

And we talked for 4 hours (If I say more, you guys won't beleive), we actually shared our everything I would say , family, jobs, aspiration, vision,school, relationship, state ,music ,movies and interests etc

She said "I knew you were this cute thing who is acting all sturdy around the boy group, But I am happy to see this side of yours too" with a smile

\*I didn't know what to say\* "Thank you"

An awkward pause/silence

"it's late for you right? You really should sleep" \*fuck my life, fuck my brain, fuck my instincts, fuck my communication skill\*

"Yeah, you're right, I'll sleep soon" \*She again said with a smile, her chin was now resting on her palm\*

"yeah" \*I should die already\*

\*I was about to ask for her Instagram or snapchat but, it felt awkward, it felt creepy, I don't know why\*

"you-" \*I was about to say\*

"you have snapchat?" \*she asked\*

"I do, but I don't use that much" \*I said almost instinctively, why did I have to say that, I could just say yes\*

"Oh- okay, fine" she said looking at the screen, at the camera

\*I was disappointed at myself\*

"I'm going to sleep" \*She said\*

"Yep good night, get a tight sleep"

\*My heart was racing in the silence again\*

\*She smiled again and showed good bye\*

\*I smiled too\* "Bye"

\*I think we both quit the app at the same time\*

\*I slept too, a bit disappointed at me and my life\*

It's been 2 weeks by the way, I just woke up and still in my bed half asleep remembering that night and I thought of writing it down

She never mentioned using reddit , but if she does she'll surely know who I am by the last awkward exchanges mentioned and Thanks for reading!

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