I’m such a fucking idiot with the worst luck in the world

I am so tired of this, every time I make an appointment I have to reschedule and it’s so humiliating! I’ve only been there twice and rescheduled both times. Now I have to reschedule tomorrow because my dad last minute decided on traveling he said he’d be back today but he hasn’t and I haven’t told him about the appointment. It’s tomorrow at 1 so I’ll have to reschedule it tomorrow! This is so embarrassing I just want to kill myself can I not be such a stereotype for once in my life I don’t even want to live anymore! Can this stop! I didn’t even want to make the appointment but my sisters forced me since I was experiencing so much pain and I have no one go drive me! God kill me I don’t care how I die so long as I die! This isn’t fair!