Looking for Post Siege fanfics

Hiii! I’ve come with a very specific request. I recently read an amazing fanfic which was essentially a case study on Lan Wangji. I’m looking for something similar that takes place during Lan Wangji’s three years of seclusion.

I’m hoping for something that really gets into Lan Wangji’s mental about his relationship with Wei Wuxian, his punishment, and ultimately Wei Wuxian’s death.

We always see that Lan Wangji’s took that punishment willingly because he loved Wei Wuxian. 100% true. But I want to see more of his struggles when it came to understanding the situation before, during, and after. I want to hear him talk about not only his confusion, but his frustration with Wei Wuxian.

Obviously, I love Wei Wuxian with all my heart, but I feel like Lan Wangji’s feelings get watered down quite a bit. He loved Wei Wuxian. He would do anything for Wei Wuxian, but surely he had some thoughts about it???

If you have any, please let me know🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾