Oh. My. Gosh

I think i just became a tucute? I don't know if y'all are familiar with the term, but i think i'm kinda glad i have *that*? First, i was like years without touching or interacting with that part, then i had a transient global amnesia episode due to work-related stress, forgot i was trans, kept asking my husband what that was after he mentioned it to the doctor, then he took me home and i got horny, again, asked what that was, he told me, then i asked him to touch it, it was kinda good? He asked if i wanted to top him and i said yes, it just hurt, then after we went to sleep, i regained 100% of my memories.

The net day, we came back to the hospital to take my bike and confirm i was ok, i was not, so they sent me to another hospital where they could put me on observation, they put a IV access in my arm, so things like bathing, using the toilet and things like that got really hard, one time i needed to pee, it was hard, so i decided to try doing it standing, i peed myself all over, and i admit it was kinda frustrating, that could be useful in some situations, anyway, i went home today, talked about it with my husband and we had sex like i never had before, he gave me a bj, which it's not thaaat uncommon, he had done it once before when we met and it wasn't bad but not good either, apparently he did his homework this time because omg, that was honestly amazing, maybe due to lack of use, it got smaller and now his whole mouth fit, idk, but it was my first orgasm in years.

He did ask me to top him again, which i tried, luckily he said "yup, i definitely don't like this", but now i kinda like him interacting with my genitals? It honestly feels good? I'm even more exited to get the SRS done now, but i kinda like my lower parts a bit more now, I feel so conflicted lol.