54 [M4F] #Oxnard - Seeking Demi/Sapio connection that can lead to more

Hey, I'm back. What's that mean to you? Probably nothing, you don't know who I am, but the need/urge to (fruitlessly I'm sure) search again in the area of Oxnard California for someone who I want to get to know who ALSO wants to get to know me has struck. (If you want to see other attempts, I don't hide my posting history, and I don't copy paste, every post is different than the other, including the one on socalr4r I posted a couple minutes before starting this one.

First off, I'm average looking, Im not being self deprecating, I'm average. 6', hazel eyes, grey hair (all of it though, no thinning or anything, I DO actually have good hair), 250#, and not someone who cares about building muscle mass at the gym, so yeah, average.

I'd like to think I'm a good conversationalist, a good listener. Intriguing engaging conversations guaranteed. I get into things when we're talking, and I might ask too many questions (tell me to shut up), but I want the details, I want someone who wants the details. Our pasts, our presents, what we want going forward. I'm obviously not entirely happy in my life and maybe you aren't too, but maybe we can help each other find happiness.

I want to connect with someone, who wants to connect with me, who wants to move from reddit, to something else, to possibly meeting in person and seeing what we have. I would like to evolve physical intimacy with someone of course but like I wrote in the title, the mental and emotional has to be there or to me being physical is pointless and empty and I already have enough pointless and empty in my life.

I'm probably a little too honest in conversation, I'll tell you what I think, I'll tell you what i believe and I'll tell you what I think about what you believe. If you are anti-vax, pro oomp loompa, or a fan of psudo science or still a fan of harry potter (cause JK Rowling sucks), we won't get along and our conversation would be short and end very badly.

Yeah, I probably come off as a hard ass right now (if you made it this far which I'm not sure anyone will) but it reflects my mood. I'm tired, of a lot of things, I'm cranky, the thing I thought was finally 'my thing' that would be fun to do and be a great distraction might no longer be the thing.

I like to bake, so tell me your favorite cookie and if I'm lucky enough to meet you for, say, coffee, maybe I'll bring you some cookies (but please, no coconut, coconut is terrible)