last night edging for a while

next week im seeing my girlfriend for the first time in months so i won’t be edging to porn anymore…

is itt bad that i wish i could edge with her? and go deeper into perverted messy porn? like she could control me while playing a porn video, or make me fuck her while she goons and doesn’t even pay attention to me, just makes me make her pussy feel good.

she and i have watched porn and jerked off together but she’s not gooning like me. i want to be babbling with her about porn tits and cocks.

am i fucked up for wanting this?