Feeling Stuck and Hopeless

I know logically this situation is not forever but I feel so stuck and frustrated right now

My previous position ended in June, I work non profit so it was a case of the grant funding ending and not getting renewed. I was at that position for 3 years

I started job hunting as soon as I was told the news, it's 3 months later and I still have nothing and I know it's because I'm visibly queer and trans

We currently live in rural Texas, we are in the painful slow process of waiting for my nesting partner's job transfer to go through so we can relocate to a safer spot in the PNW

It feels like a Catch 22, I need work outside of just my small art business so we have the funds to move, but I can't find a job here because I'm trans and queer, I also am disabled so I can't go work for an accepting company like Starbucks due to not being able to be on my feet or walk without a mobility aid

I have to shave my mustache off so I can try and pass as a woman at job interviews and I feel like I'm in some weird back sliding limbo with my transition now,

I just feel like we will be stuck here forever, I will be stuck as having to play pretend woman to hopefully land some kind of employment,

It's affecting my self confidence, I feel myself isolating and wanting to hide away from the world.

I just want to be somewhere safer, I'm so tired of going to the bathroom being some form of Russian Roulette, I'm tired of living in constant hyper vigilance everytime I leave our home, Everytime I'm in public and it's not a queer event

I just want to be free to be me and not have my transness live as a shadow over me that bars me from entry