Can anyone tell me how to deal with this?

Anyway, im 14 rn, and I think im struggling qith Hypersexuality, that's not my main problem, but is one I would like advice for, I was literally watching the hun fucking last night​, and acterwards I just felt like shit, even after taking a shower. I dunno what to do abt it, I can hardly go a week without watching smt that has to do with sex and what not, I dont even think ive gone a month without watching something that has to do with sexual content, and I can't take it, I hate myself and I just wanna stop, but I dont feel like I can tell my parents, at least not my mom abt it because I dont even think she would recognize hypersexuality as something I need mental help with, she'd probably just want to take away every device I own, and i dont think that would help, whenever im not looking at a screen I just feel worse, I know that phones and stuff are bad for me and what not, but I would rather indulge my weird ass desires and what not and feel ok for awhile rather than just not have my phone and TV at all and feel like some fucking brat who cant control themself around a screen, i dont want to be treated like a child i want to be treated as someone who has a valid problem instead of some weird hormonal horny teenager who needs to go touch grass, even though i probably do need to touch grass more, but i don't even know if I do have a problem or not, and I could never tell anyone, seriously if I do cuz i dont feel like anyone would actually listen, and if they did, they'd probably just want to send me to a mental hospital and have me off their hands. I just want to get better, and I don't think I ever actually will but I can hardly pretend like I am actually OK and I don't want to pretend till the day I die, so I could really use some advice without having to go to psychologist, not that could if I wanted to since it costs too much.

So any help or advice would be appreciated, please?​

Sorry for any typos and sorry if this post isn't tagged right or hard to follow and understand, I just needed to get this off my chest fast. Sorry