I feel like an idiot, it's horrible, and I don't know what to do

I am a M17, by idiot I mean lacking in the sum of skills that make up "intelligence" (short term memory, spacial reasoning, lateral thinking, ability to correlate just received information with stored one, and others)

I do not want to feel like this anymore as it makes me feel like everyone is above me with near to no exception, as well as making me feel like I can't understand and do next to anything, these feelings are fucking horrible and I am eternally tired of having them.

I do not know how much good this next section will do, but here is a collection of what I think are my meaningful skills

1: I am able to very quickly understand upwards of 30 pages of fourth year highschool textbooks in an hour or two (in Italy, the fourth year is the penultimate of highschool), and all year round have studied in the bus between my town and school, which is a 45ish minute drive, and in the little amounts of time I can at school before the teacher that needs to interrogate me comes. Btw that year of highschool ended a few months ago and I aged from 16 to 17 in the middle of it.

2: I can make very small, still good looking drawings with a ballpoint pen on normal paper (they range from 2.5 cm to 1 in either height of length)

I have been making them year round, too.

3: I often ponder about random topics and come to various conclusions that seem sensical to me, even tho they might not be.

Example: If God is perfect, then his creation must be perfect too, no matter how much a human may think otherwise, this means that if God exist and is perfect, then everything you see, including dystopias and crime syndicates, are part of a completely perfect world

I do not know if these traits are enough to "qualify me" as a cognitively regular person, I wish they do, I really do.