So after the missionaries left last night, I once again have thought if I returned to the church, what I know I would never do again. Here's the list...

I would NEVER:
Wear garments
Pay tithing
Go to the temple
Obey a man
Respect the priesthood
Sit in Relief Society
Sit in Sunday School
Engage in the conversations
Believe the Book of Mormon
Believe the Doctrine & Covenants
Believe the Pearl of Great Price
Be baptized again

So in the end, I could never fit in. I would be the Star Belly Sneech without a star on my belly and I would be ostracized and looked down upon for not believing anymore. So I just wouldn't fit in. So my hair brained idea of going back is a fantasy..