Please give me an honest advice cause I really need it

That will be the first time I post and honestly the first time I tell my story I will try to resume it max but please take time to read it , god give whoever answer me whatever he wants , so a year ago I knew someone , I never thought he could be someone that I would fall for ( it's always the ones u never expect , we talked and instantly we vibed , we kept talking ,I wasn't the type to talk with video calls but he did , he was algerian based in USA working , I didn't know , we were talking everyday and everything was perfect , he asked me if I had previous relationship I didn't want to lie , I said yes I dated a guy in highschool , but he wasn't in love with me so he just dated for fun , and I was so innocent back than , like I don't even know what flirt means , anyway , he kept asking about him whether he fucked me or not like lol , I was kinda choked with that question, but I said no never ,he never touched me which it was true , anyway that's a side story , the time I was talking with him I was going through a hard time, my parents divorced ,so I was sleeping a lot and waking up very late , like 13 h , 14 h and due to time gap , problems started , he at the begging before everything said he has trust issues , so problems started like when I go take a shower ,cookie do something without my phone , he start to get angry , untill one time he insulted me ( with n.m ) I was furious we stoped talking , after a week he contacted again apologized did everything he could I forgive him , I was so attracted to him idk how describe that pull , dok nresumilkom hkaya twila , I was going to visit my familly and I didn't call him ( he talk to me h24 ) , so he was angry again and the cycle repeats itself untill I blocked him he insulted my mother , he reached out through Facebook and threaten me with my pictures , and that's where all the mess started , I was so afraid and so unb and dumb , he said he hacked my Snapchat and I was dumb to belive , I did tho belived him , so I lied , I told him my sister blocked u , cause I was afraid shaking , things went back to normal ( just so u know guys he was like the one , like he did love me in a way that's so rare ... ) but it's always the same thing he never trust me , like whenever I go so something and take time he stars insulting me , he limited my friends had all my social passwords , basically he was the only person I talk to in that period , hnroh mlkher PSA hkaya twila , lsl BDA yhdedni ino y9telni o ana sah amento BLI ydirha , wliti nchofo nkhaf , like ytbedel ywali yban devil , ana ltem 9olt I should fake my death , o lie to him as if I have cancer to get rid of all of that bla myhs , cause he never let me go , tyhli sebni hdedni b mot , omg ki ntfkr , anyway hkayaetha résumé, kbret o 9olt l mes parents , o china bih , o finalement he never had any pictures only mine o normal ones , I went to the psychiatrist she told me he was narcissist and maybe leaning bipolar , but I didn't finish my session with her , now the advice I need : why even tho everything,sah ghlet o kdebt3lih bah I was in survival mode all I wanted is to get rid of him , but why nhss Rohi nhbo o JMS nasito o JMS 9drt nhih m rassi kolyum nbki , whyyyyyy , like even tho everything I did love him , o ghlet m3ah mnkdbch , please give me a solution why , I think now he is with another girl , but I could never date again dymn f lil nkhmmmmm , so please tell me what to do