I've been on that "it can't get any worse right?" - vibe and guess what it has consistently gotten worse.

M30, 2 years back lost my job of 8 years unexpectedly used the chance to get out of that industry and branch into another, was difficult but I attained it until the company decided to very unexpectedly let me go after their work load had diminished. Tried to keep positive and applied for a job in the same field but I'd have to relocate for it, spent last bit of my money, gave my current rental notice, said goodbye to family and friends.

Arrived and the pay is less and duties changed from what I was previously promised (all verbal ,obviously should have gotten it in writing I know. Two workers left a week prior to me arriving (if that doesn’t speak volumes) , so work load was transfered to me.

So now I'm broke, alone and even more miserable than ever. Town is incredibly small and without other opportunities aside from trucking, and local store work.

Extremely hard not to walk into the river with rocks in my pockets knowing that happiness is essentially unattainable at this point.

Dinner is nothing as I'm only eating once per day. Pic is my last cheat meal for my birthday. Triple 0s + Pizza.

Sometimes the risk doesnt pay off